Life is a journey. Each step of the way with our Heavenly Father, a piece of a puzzle. We all want to know the end, the big picture of our lives but by doing so we miss out on our journey. For our journey, we are supposed to live with purpose, joy and fulfillment. However, in order to realize that, we must s-l-o-w d-o-w-n and stop trying to just “make it through” to the end! With smart phones, laptops, i Pads, i Pods, tablets and video games, we are all multitasking our God-given lives away, losing our ability to socialize, communicate, have manners and grow deep relationships.

Mothers, Daughters, Grandmothers, Sisters, Girlfriends and Women of all ages: my heart is crying out to you to stop! …stop and allow yourself to settle a moment! Take a breath… settle. Close your eyes… and settle. Turn your mind off… and settle.

Now then, what do you feel: physically, emotionally and spiritually? Can you feel your body? Can you feel an emotion tucked away somewhere? Have you sat with Papa God and felt His amazing Presence?  I ask you to do this because God gave us these bodies with all their senses for a purpose. He created us to feel. Yet, we all numb ourselves from the ability to feel in order to live our lives and do what we must do to get by. Is this really living?

Being a Licensed Massage Therapist, I have learned to listen to what people say they need verbally. I have also learned that through communication of touch, there is more to a person physically that deserves respect, than just words their mind conceives to communicate. Most times they do not even realize it. I say this with a heavy heart because I am just like you. I live in the same wound-up world as you, and I struggle with these same things. I have also realized that we cannot address an issue unless we acknowledge it. It is the first step toward healing; it is also the hardest. Hardest, because if we acknowledge it, our minds kick into high gear with judgment, or we minimize it, and so disrespect ourselves and feelings. If we can acknowledge what we feel, accept it for what it is, and allow ourselves to feel it without rationalization or judgment, then we can address it without beating ourselves up.

God created all things for good. Emotions were meant to be good with a purpose. If however, we allow them to dictate our behaviors, we lose God’s good purpose for them and then become driven by them, consumed by them, or so fearful of them, we run from them or numb them away.

Stop for a moment… be still and feel what your body is trying to communicate with you. Acknowledge it. Accept it. Respect it. Ask Papa God what it is all about? Remember, Papa God does not judge. He loves you and He wants a relationship with you. When you ask Him to show you what it is you are feeling, you will know it is Him when your lungs fill with fresh breath that revives you. If you begin to feel closed and heavy, guilty or fear filled, turn your mind off, and know that is not the source of truth. That is not Papa God.

Romans 8:1 says; “Therefore, there is now No condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has Set You Free from the law of sin and death.” (caps mine)

Be still, sweet sister, and know who you are in Christ! You are the daughter of the One and Only God through Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior. Be refreshed!!

Close your eyes… listen to the lyrics and allow the music to move you.

What do you feel?

In the fall of 2005, I was officially a Monroe Community college student and to my surprise, enjoying it. Of course, the first year I was in all basic classes. But this was good, one step at a time. In the past I would try to take three, four or five steps all at once, making hasty decisions that led to unsuccessful results and deflated any confidence I had gained. Taking it slowly, one step at a time, was not usual  or easy for me. But it permitted me a freedom that was unfamiliar,a freedom that came because of enrichment. Development of who I was to be could only take place by acknowledging my fear, dealing with it by going to school and applying myself to the work required and ultimately conquering it. The fear of going to school was keeping me stagnant, unchallenged and dwelling on lies that I had convinced myself into believing. Therefore, I was no longer a prisoner of my own misconception of who I was and what I could do. Instead, I was a college student learning, a person evolving and making choices to become what I chose to be. I now was on a path of becoming what God had planned for me and my heart was satisfied.

The first year at MCC was successful and encouragement came from within to continue school with an open mind and anticipating the experience to be an adventure verses a defeating stupor. The second year was a bit more difficult, but I was ready for it. The challenge was no longer overwhelming but embraced and confronted. I found things about myself I never knew and even began to value my own opinions about things. For example, one of my writing classes was humanity of the arts. I quickly found that I loved writing about art. Not the picture or the sculpture in itself but what the artist was trying to convey to his or her audience. A piece of art before would just be a picture, a sculpture, a building or even worse, a poem or piece of literature. It did not have meaning; it may have been pretty to look at but overall I found it to be boring and dull. See, I had not explored parts of myself because I had never ventured out of my comfort zone. Finding out who I was meant to be could only occur with the exposure of different things; which leads to different thinking , different actions and different results.

Auguste Rodin 1898, Hand of God

  • Do you have something you are dealing with that seems to big to handle? What is your attitude towards this challenge?
  • Are you comfortable with things or are you finding them stretching your beliefs, patience, time, and energy?
  • Have you left your comfort zone?
  • What is keeping you comfortable?
  • Acknowledge it so you can approach it, tackle it and ultimately conquer it; Unlocking who “You” are meant to be!

Have you ever found yourself held back from something amazing due to a fear? Of course you had no idea at the time that what was on the other side of that monstrous dread was a beautiful realization of what you were meant to be. Had you known that, maybe it would have been a little easier to take that first step.  Looking back at one fear I had, is just like that. The fear of going back to school cluttered my head with self doubt and stuffed my gut with disappointment, strife and anxiety. It was something I just did not believe I could ever do and up until this point, I never even gave it a second thought. I gave up without ever trying; I bought the lie, took what seemed to be the easier route and accepted less than I should have.

In 2004 I was working as a teacher’s aid and the thought came to mind, I need more education to help others. Whoa, did I just think that? Are you crazy, you cannot do that, you know how hard school is for you. So the whirl wind of negativity began playing a long forgotten but familiar tune in my mind as my palms began to sweat, my face turned red hot, my eyes swelled and my heart ached with self defeat. Every time this thought re-entered my mind I shot it down and went about my business. One afternoon I had been praying and asking God for his direction. My desire was still to be used by God, to fill whatever purpose meant for me. My desire was to be real, to be someone, to be whole and to be set free. The question was, “how do I do that”? Simply and peacefully, a question was asked like a breeze blowing softly by, “What are you afraid of”? As though someone zapped me with a stun gun I stopped in my tracks and all my mental anguish began running rampant once again. Lifting my head slowly, I whispered back, “School”.

Something to ponder:

  • Where does fear come from?
  • Why do we allow fear to dictate our lives and layout our future?
  • What is on the other side of your “Monstrous Dread?”

People often ask, “What made you decide to become a  massage therapist?” This of course is a valid question to ask and one you would think is simple to answer. On the surface I could reply that I felt led to it or that I have always been a tactile, hands-on type of person who loves people.  All of these are true, but I also am a person who likes to get to the heart of the matter and go just a little deeper. How I became a licensed massage therapist did not happen by chance and it did not happen overnight. It took time to accept, time to open my mind and time to develop courage to face fears, to fail, to learn, and to grow.

In July 2003 I remember driving my three young children for the first time to family camp. The three kids and I were filled with excitement, smiles on our faces; sun shining through the windows. The breeze was lightly blowing and the tunes playing loud as we sang along. It was then that I heard my song, “This is My Desire” by Jeremy Camp. I call it my song because it spoke to my heart. It was everything I longed for. As a stay at home mom without any college education I did not know what “my desire” entailed or where my desires would even take me. All I knew was that in the morrow of my being, my desire was to give my heart to God, to follow His direction and in return, God would us me for His perfect purpose. I was willing to take whatever steps I needed to, no matter what they were, to become whatever God had planned.

Something to think about and search your own hearts;

  • Do you know what your desires are?
  • Do you have fears?
  • What might those fears be keeping you from?